You sit in your grief
It is as though an icy reminder of winter has invaded the autumn
You suddenly find yourself in.
You sit in the icy numbness.
Then the numbness passes.
And you are tossed around by the autumn winds
Blowing their cold breath
Causing all to hunch forward and rush to shelter.
Leaving you alone in your grief.
You stand there
In the midst of the swirling leaves
Reds, oranges, yellows and brown.
Echoing your own swirling emotions
And you long for the time when you felt only numbness.
Then you sighed
And settled in for the long haul of the winter of your grief.
The days when it was icy and still.
When snow muffled every sound
And the world seemed deserted.
Just you and your pain.
As you stood on the edge of the ocean.
Antarctic blast hitting you with its icy needles
The waves whipped to a frenzy by winter storms
You remembered that all healing comes in waves.
The intensity varies.
Sometimes you can feel almost normal.
Other times you feel like you can’t go on.
You are out there in the white caps
And then you realise you will heal
You look around and notice the gradual budding of leaves at the ends of branches.
You look at the ground as tiny flowers emerge from their bulbs.
The wind comes warm and you dance in the beauty of it.
Then the wind blows cold and you are back in the thundering waves
Be okay to feel what you are feeling.
To feel those exhilarating days of warm breezes
And those terrifying days of drowning.
Allow it to take time.
You will be fed up with grief
Long before it is finished with you.
Allow the pain.
In that pain is growth.
In that pain is the way to learn how to live with your loss.
A day will come when you will stand on the edge of the ocean
The sun will dance on the gentle waves
A warm wind will gently caress you
And you will feel at peace.
Nan Cameron 24/7/2023
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